11.17.2004

yucky CIO

The whole Crying It Out method to get E to sleep has saved my sanity - literally. Well, your sanity plummets before it return to before-baby-normal, of course, because the whole CIO means listening to your baby cry cry cry for a few days while they get used to putting themselves to sleep. Its very hard as a mum to do - but when I was sleep deprived for 6 months to the point of desperation (way past that point, actually) then I did what I had to do. It took 3 days - now Ethan sleeps 11 hours a night in his crib. We both get enough sleep.

Naps. Another story. We actually enjoy our 2ce a day cuddle co-sleep naps. It keeps me from doing things that need being done - but I really enjoy the snuggle time, and I know E goes to sleep quickly and easily that way. But with daycare 6 weeks away, I'm the one crying it out with my son as we try to get him nap-friendly with a crib sans mum. He needs to be able to sleep without me, in his own bed (or someone elses I guess) when he goes to Marilyn's house in January 4 days a week. The adjustment is going to be big enough - I just desperately hope that he'll have at least one nap a day there.

If I wasn't putting E in care - I'd continue with our napping together for a few months longer. Its one more reason I HATE that I have to go back to work and take this from him - from me. He's growing so fast and never again will we have that special thing.

I'm feeling a bit depressed about the return to work in January. Its sooooo soon. I can't get beyond the losses - his and mine. I'm mourning now - and I know it will just get deeper in the coming weeks. I can feel a big gush of tears behind a weak door of pressure of my resolve - but soon I'm gonna crumble. I think I need to get it out before I move forward. I just hate sadness - and am pretty adept at hiding it away for a time but it never goes away, does it?

Crying it out. Appropriately named, isn't it? Do that, and maybe I'll be able to rest.

4 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sounds like you need a visit from your mum! I'll tell her!

5:22 p.m.  
Blogger chRistine said...

*hugs*

3:42 a.m.  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey! Its Shauna form MT.

Just to give you some encouragement, it took E about a week of full time daycare and she sleeps in the crib in the sleep room no problem. Her educator says she's the easiest baby to put to sleep because she dosen't require a bottle and there's no boobs available so a cuddle in the rocking chaier and she's out like a light. In fact today she was still napping when I went to pick her up!
It'll be fine and you'll marvel at all the things he'll learn and show off his favorite toys or new feat when you pick him up. E has to have a nusrse session after we get home though or she completely melts down but thats fine I enjoy our afternoon cuddles :)
PM me anytime. *Hugs*

5:30 p.m.  
Blogger Sherocious said...

Hey Shauna - thanks for taking the time to comment (and visit my blog!). Words like yours are very encouraging - and help reassure me a little bit.

Its so wonderful that we belong to such a supportive, knowledgeable community of mothers, isn't it?

5:59 p.m.  

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